hey hey, i'm back..
haha... okies.. for those who have my msn and have been wondering wassup with my nick yesterday? you got almost the full story from my blog entry yesterday..
anyways,i cried my ass off while i was drunk... and i think i cried like over an hour plus. you know, it just so hurts me to think about people backstabbing and your "friends" betraying you over a girl?(who wasn't even worth it in the first place), I still remember Anthony telling me a long time ago.. "guys will never quarrel over a gal".. but I guess that's different today from where ever I'm standing and experiencing.
But I guess that hour over worth's of crying did help me in 1way, it help me to put the past behind.. no point brooding anymore. No point, yes I mean it. Your ex-girlfriend(cheryl bock) goes steady with your "good friend"(eugene).. that's still okay, I forgive that, but your "good friend" suddenly ignores you(perhaps being too ashamed too anyways) and somehow he influences everyone closer to him(alvin) than I am and that I know to ignore me too.Hey guess what, you're not going to bring me down.. I dont care about it, I guess that night.. many people assured me and I'm really glad for it,and yes.. whatever I said when I was drunk that night, I still stick to it, I'll never take it back, whatever I said.. I believe I had a sensible mind. so you know what.. believe it. I can tell you everything I said while I was drunk... just that those were secrets I would have never let out.. but guess they all came out..
So now you know why I wanted to get drunk.. hoping to drown my sorrows.. like I heard zhaoting.. haha "this one's drowning his sorrows".. and yes, it dint really work, in the end I still broke down and cried my ass off. But it's all over now. There's still lotsa people out there that I have yet to know.. and I'm going to continue being the lame ass that I was born to be.. haha.
Thanks everyone out there who have believed in me, and those that dont... cause those that dont have just made me trust myself more to strive for the best. :)



Once again, thanks.