wanted to become strong, but all i am is nothing more than a weakling.

Okay, the holidays have been really sucky since it started for me.. like 25th of november? zzz
I have yet to go out a single time, everyone doesn't wanna go clubbing when I ask them, which makes you really wonder why they acting kinda strange.
Just feel some lousy bitch's behind all these play... but I hope my judgement's wrong.
Anyways, I shall ignore it and assume the guys just aint free. Okies... So I've completed star wars episode 3 and 25% of Need For Speed: Most Wanted, I dont play the whole day.. or else I'd have completed alot of my games already, I'm just taking my time. Star wars episode 3 isn't that difficult.. compared to episode1, I remember playing it at lower sec and boy did I have a tough time, but this time, the game seemed really easy to complete.. weird. haha. either that or my mind has grown over the years becoming more complex.. maybe maybe. ah wells...
Okies, then there's Need For Speed(NFS), really good game... I guess it rocks but I think the guide's not really reliable when it comes to choosing the markers after beating the rivals. So.. I realised a bit late that "pink slips" are some markers where you obtain the last rival's car you just beat.. and boy. are some of the cars hot! the next rival has a porsche c clayman.. and that's jus one hell of a car.. ah.. haha. but it's kinda scary cause you gotta raise your bounty and complete milestones and races before challenging a rival. why scary? cause people come chasing after you, and after beating #9 on the list, you get helicopters chasing you.. oh man.. isn't really nice to get caught by the cops in the game. haha... ah wells I got nothing much to say..
Sigh.. about 1month more to army,I'm dreading it.. cause it signals no more school uniforms for me. uni's gonna come real soon.. and I'll be an adult... I dont wanna be an adult so soon.. :( ah wells.. not as though we can slow time down or anything like that.
oh oh.. Okies, people who read my blog please pass the message around. Eunice messaged me finally and...


TPJC Post Prom: 2nd December
Venue: ONE@One Fullerton
Price: Not Confirmed(tomorrow k?)

Okies, that's all, thanks for de info eunice, yeah peepz! even if ya not from TPJC, please do come down? :) I'll entertain all my frens who are coming yeah? haha...

Alright... finally the A levels are over, but not that it really made any difference. The whole experience is just so mentally draining and demoralising. I just feel that I worked harder for the O's but if I think through again, I feel more work has been put into for the A's... haha
I mean I studied for more than 12hours a day 1week after my prelims for the O'levels. but for the A's,the most I studied was 12hours.. but it was an average of about 6-8hours a day, that's all. If you think about it, I've been like consistently studying for the whole year and the end of last year. So maybe I worked harder for the A's.. ah wells. It's quite difficult to tell eh... even my godbrothers feel we worked harder at the end for the O's... ah wells. It's over.. just have to wait a couple of months more before the results eh? hehe...
Meanwhile, I bought my Playstation2 finally, with much procrastinating at the beginnning... yes i know PS3 is coming out very soon. but if you think about it, I'm also going to the army soon.. so why not buy the PS2 and play it like crazy rather than buy a PS3 and never play it right? Yeah... hehe
I dont know what to say.. but right now I'm just really hoping for the best. No regrets I guess, it's all over. And I'm very glad to say I'm proud of myself.. all the effort I put in for Fmaths without giving up, just hope my hard work pays off, same goes for the Physics S-paper, I'm sure there are so many better people out there.. but just hope I'll be able to shine. I really want a scholarship so I'll take some things off my mum's mind and mind to begin with. If that does happen, I'll be able to choose a better college too. I'm considering aeronautical engineering.. Yeah! A relief teacher told me it has lots of mechanics, and mechanics is REALLY FUN. It never ceases to make me feel happy, I'm weird yeah. Anyways, hope it's what I really want to study, but I'll be researching into the area more since the holidays have begun and see if it suits me.If not,I guess I'll be studying Physics or maybe even try out for a double degree in Physics and Maths if there's such a thing. Ah wells, we'll see when the time comes eh?
Oh! Praying works during exams, of course dont pray for good results. Pray for guidance, it's ultimately your hard work that's going to pay off and all you ask from the Lord is his guidance,no more. Dont be greedy! :) The Lord works his wonders very subtly. o.O
I guess I might be going clubbing tonight, but that really depends on my khakis yeah.. haha, if there's nobody that's interested in going then I wont go and just end up sleeping like a log tonight. My brother had the audacity to actually talk on the phone and blast his music in the middle of the night. Can you believe it? of all days to choose, the night before my last paper? ah wells... stupid fellow. Of course, I shan't be angry, no point anyways.
I got my edusave merit bursary award for the second time in a row. Really proud of myself, I've never gotten an edusave award until like after the O levels, and JC life has been just great.. I've made it to the top 25% of the school again! Although I really dint quite expect cause I felt my results were rather appalling. Quite proud of myself, make my mama happy too. :) everyone's happy, guess I'll keep that money in the bank once again... too bad no eagles award or anything like that this time, would really love to have that money to save. Ah wells, work hard work hard. Oh, I'm not being arrogant in anyway if you are reading and feel I am. Ah wells, just proud that I'm finally putting effort to my studies and I've been a consistent scorer in my grades ( other than Fmaths, Straight Fs... haha ). Yeaps, it'll come very soon.. March.
Okies, so the holidays have started for me and I've got almost everything planned up. Pack my school notes and those whatever rubbish I have, okay.. not rubbish, anyways, I'm going to give free tuition or really cheap ones next year if I feel I'm qualified enough. I'm sure everyone out there's just waiting to burn their notes eh.. heh. I would love to though, how about contributing my General Paper notes, if I can firstly,find them, and secondly, have notes in the first place to begin with. I've also got lots of exercising planned up, swimming and running everyday and gymming on alternate days. Really hope to boost my fitness LOADS so I can make it into Officer Cadet School(OCS) and get a high pay,haha.. I sound so money-minded. But this money will go into my future education in the university. Yeaps... I guess that's all for today. need to rest my mind for awhile. :)

1more day... wahah. gd luck to all peeps! :) god bless! its gonna be 3long weeks for me.. while sum of u jus have to wait 2.. haha. ah wells.