:-( I hate this feeling, it seems to always happen to me. I dint want you to know this time, but was I that obvious? *sigh* I really dont know what to do.. it's like losing a friend.. and geesh. I'm just too baffled for any words right now. Someone tell me what to do.. It's finally I decide to settle down... after so long. And this happens, I guess I'll just wait and see. Time will reveal itself. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*... You're part of the reason as to why I came back.. and right now, I'm gonna leave again cause of the army. Just really wanna know you.. but.. okies. Never mind..

Might be clubbin tonight, although I really really really do not want to go. But I owe Derrick a favour and he's been my bro since sec2.. and ah wells.. I guess I'll just accompany him but I think I'll just be sitting around or something. No drinks, no dancing.. it aint my life no more. Clubbing's a facade that has faded away. The people are so fake, about 90% of those I've met are anyways. They lie to you to get what they want.. they make use of you... so, it's definitely not for me. Ah wells, at least I found out... though through the hard way..

Okies so I slacked the whole of yesterday, just went to Parkway to buy clothes from TopMan... bought 2tops, that's about it, forgot to buy my handphone batteries.. grr... Called Brenda and the rest.. all dint wanna meet up for dinner, though they watched King Kong. I was just too lazy to meet up with them.
Anyways, went to jog 5km today.. I'm really exhausted.. haha. I couldnt even run.. think I forgot to warm up one part of my body and oh man.. it just hurt real bad joggin.. but I think I walked quite a bit.. but jogged more definitely, should be jogging everyday since I'm enlisting next friday.. (sigh.. 8more days and some things just happen) Okies.... den did some push ups and pull ups.. after that, I couldnt even walk up the stairs...grr.. haha. Okies, that's all for today's entry, not much though.

Hopefully the New Year's Eve party goes all well..

Wow.. christmas just passed like that.. okies, time just passed like that. I haven't updated my blog for almost a week, and it doesn't feel like a week. Not really enjoying this feeling of time passing by so quickly, 9days left to my enlistment. Dont miss me so much people... :S
Okies, so usual.. sang for christmas mass, but this year I felt that christmas wasn't that special for some reason. the choir, the crowd? I think it was just everything... I tried making it really special but just couldn't get the feeling.. wore my SYF suit.. so nice. :) okies, so after mass the usual stuff.. go round hugging and wishing people yeah? lol, godma gave me a nice adidas shirt! :P okies, other than that, dint have any presents this year.. haha, but I dont really care la. After that, went to Nicole's place... and we just slacked around, ate and played really stupid games.. haha, oh and we watched "the maid".. it was so not scary la... haha(wonder who told me it was...), Anyhow, I was like just laughing my ass off the whole movie cause it was really funny.. keke. Okies so.. after the movie, we did some slacking around while the rest went to play soccer. but after awhile, it started to rain so they couldn't play anymore.. haha. so they played some guessing game.. you had to make a headband and one person would write a characther on a piece of paper and pass it to the person on the right. that person then has to guess what's the chracther he has(of course, the paper's placed on the headband made out of paper)by asking questions to everyone.. it's yes or no questions only. So after that it was already about 7am!?! really really quick.. it's madness. yeaps, so everyone went home.. Elden fetched me and he did some really stupid things.. haha, thank god nothing happened to me eh.. I dint fasten my seatbelt.. grr. okies, so I just went home and snoozed through.

Until 6pm, I woke up... went to my mum's place for christmas party as usual every year.. the food was really good.. ate quite a bit and drank quite a bit.. they asked me to so ah wells... dint wanna drink this year, don't know why.. okies, so I stayed around till 10pm, the crowd this year was just lesser and so much quieter... see what I told you about christmas this year... really DULL! okies, so after that I went to Derrick's house for christmas party and the food wasn't really that great... :-#, don't know why.. maybe it dint suit my taste, but there was just sooooo much food and drinks. There were these 2idiots at the party, one of which was my old confirmation mates.. oh man. idiots, one of them was just happily mixing drinks like anyhow with really disgusting tastes(he mixed gin with vodka and beer and that glucose powder?) and the other idiot was drinkin those drinks.. guess what? He got drunk.. oh man, did he give a bad time to the people around there by just puking all over the place... and the dog was cleaning it up.. haha, disgusting dog. So after really puking alot, that guy said "I want to sleep on the grass" and his 2friends brought him to the grass and he slept till the next morning and just disappeared when me and Derrick woke up.. haha. Yeah, that was the only fun thing I experienced there cause I was like just chatting online and watching tv the whole time. Oh yeah, Clara n Derrick argued.. but I guess they're ok now, but their relationships not for me to interfere yeah? =)

So I woke up around 7am? slept for about 2hours only so far.. Rushed home, bathed and changed my clothes and went to century square to watch Narnia.. really nice movie. although it was from a children's book, I guess the story was really really cool.. haha, you just got to watch it to know it. The tickets cost 6bucks instead of the usual 9.50 cause the church subsidised us.. so cool right.. hehe, yeah and after that we had a sharing in the theatre itself. Alvin was telling us how the movie was so related to christ's live, like how he was stripped of his garments while the lion got shaved. it's just tons of similarities.. and I was simply amazed to how true it was, someone told me the author's a catholic so that could be the main reason why there were just so many distinct similarities. Okies, so after that.. went home.. I think we ate first.. oh at Long John's.. I ordered the cajun chicken, not bad.. just abit too salty. Yup, went home after that and slept... woke up around 5 or so and had to go to Jon Chia's house for a christmas party which G2 had to carol and have a sing-a-long session with the parents. :P yeah, I thought a couple of the basses a really cool method of singing which Nelson taught me. was effective anyways.. for them to use their diaphragms. Okies, so my mama fetched me there after I topped up my ez-link card. the food was really good, the singing was not bad.. but we were just squished up. after the sing-a-long ended.. it was already about 10pm and all the parents just left the place while the rest of us stayed behind. but when we started playing our games, they said we had to pack up and leave... I guess most of us were disheartened cause we were expecting to have a stayover there cause that's usually happens at the Chias during parties.. but ah wells. Thank the Chias for opening up their house for us anyways.

Okies,so yesterday.. there were plans for tennis but the rain just spoilt it all. so the guys decided to meet up at parkway parade for tea.. hehe, but ended up eating MOS burger.. wonder that's considered tea. ah wells.. okies.. so after that we just spent the time walking around dont know doing wat beside looking at clothes and flowers.. yups. then we called up tons of G2 peeps to meet at Gelare cafe at 8pm.. and greg had to say 8+.. haha, so it was really usual or at least a habit for G2 to be late.. so 8plus.. most of them just turned up around 8:30 or 9? I can't remember.. went opposite to eat at beer garden. Oh man, there's this new claypot rice stall there.. the claypot's really really good.. but it cost 5bucks!?! can you believe it, but I ordered it.. so could try. It's really nice but just too costly. yeah after that, we just sat down and slacked around.. I can't even remember what happened between.. we just went to Darren Leong's place and played games.. haha, card games.. and some of them learnt mahjong.. haha, really funny. after that, we just watched stupid shows on TV.. I mean really stupid.. ok, we were watching street fighter.. Nicholas and his stupid ideas.. grr. haha, after that, we went to makan! and there were just 6of us left, but 2 of them dint eat and went home.. yeah, so went home sleep sleep.. and here I am right now! and I have yet to exercise.. haven't done it in quite a number of days... =( I'm beginning to grow fat.. sobx! Okies, maybe I shall do some today but the weather's just spoiling everything.. grr,ah wells.. hope it doesn't rain so I can exercise... hopefully the guys are meeting up today or something.

*I just dont want you to feel weird around me,I feel the same way too*

Yo peeps~ okies...
erm.. went gym on tuesday as usual.. haha.. after that just slacked my whole day till about 5plus? went to church for choir.. yeaps! guess I'll be back for now, not sure about next year.. most probably. anyways, taught all the basses that were there how to sing, what Sam taught me.. so pass it down yeah? so each and everyone of them has their own personal things to correct but I guess it'll take time, okies.. so we had practice and I got to say.. the basses sounded quite good.. just hope some of the newer ones will be confident enough to just stick out and make mistakes.. that's how we all learn yeah? keke...

Okies, yesterday just slept all the way till the afternoon.. haha... after that went jogging.. I planned to run 5km, but I dint know the exact distance of running around my whole estate.. only checked after my run and much to my dismay, I ran 3.6km which is like short 4rounds around the track? but ah wells.. at least now I know the route for 5km. Oh oh... den went swimming after that, swam 20laps.. yups. It was freezing cold when I entered the pool cause it was still drizzling.. but after I started swimming it wasn't cold already..
Rushed off to Macs to buy dinner for my grandmother and back home.. was really late for choir as I had this really bad tummyache.. think my abs took to much action for the day.. cause it hurt like hell this morning.. haha. so yups, Darren Leong's mum was supposed to fetch us to church but I called him and said I had a really terrible tummy so I reach around 8:30 or so? lol... but yeah just sang. The songs for midnight mass are about the same? only like 1 or 2 new things I have to learn.. but thank god I joined choir so I could sight read! (phew!) Yups yups.. Anyways, the songs are quite easy to learn so yeah.. short songs.. or at least it's kinda repititive.. okies, had dinner.. and went to leong's place to play bridge for the 2nd night in a row.. left his place at 3am and walked home.. haha really really tired...

So I woke up around 9am this morning? slept again.. woke up, sleep.. until 3pm? den just chatted on msn until like 5+? met Herng Yih to buy my xmas t-shirt so I can go visiting in it.. it's from a shop called "newbie" in Marina Square. the clothes quite cheap and cute.. keke. oh, he fell off the bike a 2nd time(what a loser right? haha) so he's on leave from lifeguard duty again.. his wounds are infected and really gross.. wahaha.. okies shall spare u the details.
Anyways, brought him to Carl's Jr to check out the size of the burgers.. it's just really BIG.. bet one burger would fill all your stomachs. Okies.. so just went home and here I am.. but the journey home wasn't all that peaceful.. had these 2irritating filipino kids who kept singing or just saying some nonsense over and over again.. at first it was cute, but after that it just got really irritating.. but I tried to sleep.. so dint really care. haha.. okies, tomorrow's the big day! sing sing! gonna stay over at nicole's place tomorrow night.. yuppersss..
Shall wear my SYF suit for mass.. just need to borrow a silver tie from Chin Soon since I melted mine the day of concert.. haha.

Okies,that's all for today! nights!

*falling in love with your eyes...*

Okies, it almost once week since I last blogged. sorry for the wait whoever reads this blog. - 17days still my enlistment.. :S

Friday - slacked the whole day and it was so sore from gym the day before, I couldn't straighten my arms cause it was really sore.. haha,but yeah.. at least know that I did what I wanted to(more than actually).After which, I just did nothing at home but tried to call people to go clubbing at attica, but nobody wanted so argh heck it. was really getting cheesed off.. you know? always asking people out and they dont wanna go where you want to go anyways. yeah, a group of them wanted to go to cocco latte and that place has given me a very lousy impression so yeah.. dint wanna go there. So in the end, I ended up at DXO, Eunice had some vip entries or something which could bring people in for free. Initially, there was some performance due to their opening of god knows what... So we went in late cause we had to wait for Kimberly. but ah wells, so I only caught this group of guys breakdancing... initially it was really exciting but after awhile it just got pretty dull as they were just performing the same moves over and over again(swear I could have slept if they went any longer!)Okies, so after that the dance floor was open... and I got to say, the poly people that were clubbing there were just soooo not enthusiastic? After about an hour or so of dancing, everyone just started leaving the dance floor.. soon enough, the DJ was playing his music, but there wasn't anyone dancing.. what a crowd!?! seriously.. geesh. Okies, so after that, the guys decided to go to cocco latte and I was like "what the heck?! just go.."(since a couple of them had VIP passes so they could sign us in for free), Eunice and Kim went home after the DXO thingy. Yups, the crowd at cocco latte was sooo much better than the DXO one. Stupid Alan tried pushing me to this girl.. haha, but when I saw her face, was really scary cause she resembled someone so I just couldnt dance with her right? :)
After that,the whole group of us just sat down at Simpang Bedok and just ate and talked loadsa crap.. always happens when Alex is around anyway.. haha. After that I just walked home.. took about 30mins.. and snoozed through.. haha.

Saturday - slacked as usual after which just went to church for mass. After mass, called Darren Leong.. asked him where he was... so me n Nick just sat down and talked to Darren for a really long time, after that we decided to just go to choir(at least I persuaded Nick to anyways.. haha).. So we went in G2 was just singing one of the christmas carols we have been singing for years.. and when we joined along, Duane went "Basses, tone down." haha.. I was like.. Wooh, not bad.. we're still quite power. Yeah, but the choir attendance was really terrible... I think my toes and fingers could count the number of people present that night. Went for prayer meet after that,they were screening this cartoon of some goat that felt useless... and the camel told them a story of some crippled lamb that felt useless and God forgotten him. So what happened? God did give him a place on this planet, that was to provide warmth for Jesus when he was born while the whole flock was at the new pasture feeding on the grass.
After which we had a sharing session(usual usual), okies.. so what did I learn? we had to identify our "crippled-nesses" in life.. and God will always bless us with more "crippled-nesses" as we move on in life.. the purposes of these is to help us play a part in one way or another..(God's plan. =D). No matter how demoralising our "crippled-nesses" are.. just remember, you will find the reason why God gave them to you. Just so much, could be a physical or a mental one.. so yup. be happy to blessed with them, despite not knowing what they are for, you would find out... Alvin told us he has been wearing specs since he was 8 I believe? and he found the purpose of it only more than 10years later... some razor flew into his face while he was working and it hit his specs and it just flew away.. cool eh? so that was the plan for his "crippled-ness", of course there are other stuff. but it was a sharing.. so I aint supposed to tell people.. keke! After that just had dinner with some of G2 den went home since I had a really bad tummyache.. heh. Snoozed as usual.. zZzz.

Sunday - wanted to go to the gym, but my mother was pms-ing as usual.. complaining and nagging about everything under the sun. She actually started screaming like some mental patient at one instance cause she was so stressed.. crazy one.. haha. Okies, so I just stayed at home till evening and went to the Esplanade and watched the Estonian Choir... haha, they were really good, but I just could not be impressed as more than half the time, they were just dancing? Yeah, so I couldn't really appreciate their singing since I dint have the chance too.. anyways, they're like some Hi-5 gang from Estonia, some company called the eTv(Estonian Television) sponsors them and they have their own series.. so ya, dancing and singing? sounds like Hi-5 right? haha.. yeah after that, met Darren Leong and some of the G2 people,watched them play bluff and bridge.. after that,we went to Marcus' house. Initially I was watching soccer/wrestling but got so bored of both.. haha. and the comp kept hanging so Darryl couldn't play DOTA with Marcus' brother.. Darryl then started played the electrical drums and the others play bridge, so I just used the comp and chatted on MSN.. haha. nothing better to do. went home around 1+ - 2am? yeahs...

Monday - did nothing except gym in the morning, oh oh... after that, went to market to take my instant passport photo and then to the post office to send a mail of documents containing my photocopied testimonials and whatever certificates I achieved that were important. What were they for? I decided to apply for the DSTA scholarship, so I sent in my resume via the internet on Sunday? I had to type an essay of 400words in 20mins, not that easy since you only had a few topics to choose from... so I chose one that asked me to state a talent/personal quality I had and how it'd help in the peace and progress of Singapore. haha.. not easy eh? yeah,procrastinated for a really long time before deciding to apply for the scholarship.. I guess it's better to try than not to. although I had to apply with my prelim results which is really sucky. Ah wells, hope hope... yeap. If it's successful, I believe I'll have to go for an interview in Jan... woo, that's the scary one.. should I like start reading on tons of engineering and science articles? keke... hope I dont get caught off guard during the interview.. not a very good impression. Guess that's all I did yesterday... dint do much after that...

Shall post more on today later on today or tomorrow.. heh. Anyways, should I go back to G2? I dont know.. ah wells, maybe.. but I think I should be singing for Christmas as usual.. oh, I recieved a mail from G2 yesterday.. so touching. It goes "You've been missed" on the cover.. and inside the "postcard" there were many people who wrote stuff asking me to go back and all.. yeaps. heh, interesting eh.. never see that happen in G2 before.. must have happened during the camp.. :) Okies, that's all for today. :P.. I mean now anyways

Okies,came back from gym a while back.. did about 2.5hours today, but more intensive.. man, I'm really really sore this time.. haha. need to intake more meat for protein.Hopefully can go swimming, dint go yesterday.. haha. Anyways, I'm just really pissed right now which is why I wanna blog.
You know after 12years of education, I sometimes really wonder what the education system has taught us in Singapore, especially a subject known as SOCIAL STUDIES. we study all and everything under the sun there is to know especially about racial tolerance and having compromise and accomodation to people who are different and all those stuff... etc. etc. remember in primary school we had to learn the cultures and food of other races. Up till today... whenever I chat with people online, the first question I'm faced with whenever stating I'm a eurasian is "so which part of Europe are you from?"... I mean excuse me!?! Did I say I was EUROPEAN? can't people differentiate.. seriously, okay put that aside, are eurasians born in Singapore not SINGAPOREANS? That just simply means I would have grown up in a culture where perhaps singlish is just bred into us and that simply explains I dont "speak" perfect english, or give the impression that I'm european right? Seriously, I just feel the education system should do something.. about the awareness of EURASIANS in Singapore, it really seems we are the most insignificant race, see I'm not subjecting to any form of racism here.. but doesn't it seem that way. It's always people saying, Chinese,Indian,Malay... very rarely or none at all do you even hear the word Eurasian being mentioned. I really hope to strike some awareness into the Singapore society that Eurasians do exists and we are SINGAPOREANS too, also we do not have the need to speak "perfect" english or I should call it "European" english...
I guess that's about it, although sometimes I really feel eurasians are arrogant.. I dont know, it's just the impression that I'm given whenever I do chat with eurasians online.. It's like most of them feel they are superior as though they are "whites".. I seriously think we should be more humble people. I believe that the percentage of eurasians in Singapore is not very little.. but doesn't it seem that as though in the education system itself, as you rise up to higher levels(or supposedly better ones,no insults whatsoever).. you rarely see eurasians. I'm perhaps the only eurasian in TPJC for my batch that is, I believe I have 1junior whose a eurasian.. but otherwise!?! No one...
Guess that's all for now, might blog later.. Anyways..Attica tonight for 20bucks, anyone interested in going call Natasha at 91447161. Attica's age requirement is normally 21 but for once they're lowering it for this party, so it's really a good opportunity to see how good the club is.. otherwise, you'd have to wait like 3years just to see what the club's like.. haha. okies, that's all!

I want that Armin Van Buuren album Shivers... ahhH!!!

Heyo Peeps~ dint blog yesterday. heh, too tired I guess.. went out yesterday(kinda). Met Kah Seng at the bedok gymnasium around 1030am? after that we did loadsa exercises and all the machines.. some people really dont have gym etiquette, hogging the machines by leaving their towels and doing other stuff, that's just selfish behaviour. They should be called "bastards", geesh.. anyways. did about half hour of running or so and loads of upper body exercises myself.. Kah Seng ah.. also not sure what he did.. haha, should be going tomorrow if my body doesnt feel that sore(I'm feeling soreness all over my body right now.. nice though. =D )
Okies, so I went home and snoozed till evening arrived and I went to meet my tuition teacher.Finally met Mr.Thong after about a year.. J Oh said he looks really old and stressed up while when I saw him, he didn't look that way. haha, he supposedly looks younger to me but the rest said he looks the same.. I guess maybe cos of the misconception J Oh imprinted on my mind.. yeah! after that went to eat Bak Chor mee at Blk 85, dint really have to wait long... oh, and the woman J Chia pissed off like 2years ago couldn't remember him.. haha, I still remember how she used to shout at us when we went to Blk85. ( We bought drinks from the nearby 7-11 and J Chia actually went to ask that auntie if we could have ice from her stall... haha ),joker la he. ah wells..
Im lazing around as usual today. army's going to be in less than a month already, about 3weeks or so I guess? hope I have enough time to train.. or else I'll just suffer there although everyone's telling me, I'm already physically fit enough but I think otherwise eh? Maybe I shall go swimming or something later,but kinda having a headache right now.. dont know why either, maybe going to fall sick soon. I think my body's very heaty right now cause I've been continously bitting my ownself when I'm chewing my food and lotsa pimples with pus are just popping up! (UCK!) Okies. That's all, shall update if there's anymore interesting things to talk about. =D

Woo man, I just can't stop thinking about how great Armin is... heh. World #3, what you wanna expect yeah? Ohs, I remember while clubbing.. I was thinking if world peace meant anything, it had to be clubbing.. haha. That sounds stupid but I just have my reasons despite all the stupid flaws everyone presents while clubbing. It's really a sight, just watching people from around the world coming down to watch someone DJ and hear his/her music. It's really astonishing... haha, the english guy I met while dancing there told me this "Armin made me cry with his music" and I just went "Oh...", but ya know what.. I wanted to cry too.. haha! Sounds stupid but his music is just that great.. it just hits you right in the heart or something and makes you wanna forget every worry you've ever had in life. No DJs' gonna do that besides him for now.. Yeah.. hmms,I seem to have so much to say about ZoukOut but I just forget everytime.. ah wells.

Friends friends friends... dont you think it's weird? Its like if you're a true friend, you'd tell the person straight in the face how you feel regarding a certain situation.. but of course you'd just get reprimanded for your sincerity and honesty. But I guess that's part of being a true friend, you just gotta suck it all up and hope for the best for your friend. Nothing much to say also, just.. I'm willing to give up almost anything for my friends, and I hope to find friends like that too one day.. maybe in army eh? (hopefully)
Oh, on the topic on army.. I'm enlisting on the 6th of Jan and it's really too fast for me.. I'd most probably cry cause I haven't had enough time to enjoy.. this holidays has just been screwy for me... Haven't even been going out, even if I had.. I wouldn't consider them as an outing for leisure but rather a stressful one to settle prom night etc.?? Yeah... Gotta start training up, haven't started.. so damn fucking lazy. Someone kick my arse.. haha.

Good news! Mr.Tan told me the TPJC choir has attained 3golds so far in KL and we're the category winners for "Equal Voices" whatever that is.. haha,and they're gonna participate in the Grand Finals tonight! which is in about a few minutes.. it starts at 1945hours.. So envious, I thought I could really enjoy my holidays in Singapore so I forsaked the chance of singing, but looking at all the shit I've been thrown at and what the choir's achieving, I really wish I could just be there... Sigh... Okies
That's all for today. :)

Take care people, please tag my board ya? :D

Okies, I came back not long ago... the names still ringing in my head baby..
Nick Warren,Armin Van Buuren,Sven Vath...
Fwah! seriously, I was kinda depressed that nobody accompanied me to zoukout.. so thank god although I went alone myself.. I didn't regret. wisest choice ever in my life baby.. haha.. Okies, the music was just splendid,fabulous.. I bet it'd make you dumbfounded.. okies, there's just so many things to describe it right now.. Personally, I felt armin's just the bloody greatest.. you could hear people screaming and shouting "This is fucking good!", there were just tons of caucasians which explains the flagrant swearing.. anyways. It was indeed FUCKING good.. I drank 2cups of alcohol and I almost vomitted.. cause I dint eat the whole day, so I ordered this turkish burger thingy(kebab? that's what the people ordering called it).. Damn Sedap(Shiok!).. but 5bucks, okies.. ah wells, it was humongous,yummy! Okies, back to armin... Carlyn cursed it to rain, guess what... It DID! WOOOO! It just made the party more lively baby, everyone just started jumping to the music and screaming their lungs off like there's no tomorrow or something like that.. man, I just danced with this guy from the UK? Cool dude, haha.. but he had to leave at like 5am cause he had a flight back to tokyo at 8am. Ah wells.. so after that, saw my bro.. think his friends laughing at my dancing.. haha, couldn't be bothered.. Yeah, so after dancing for god knows how many hours it was.. haha, my legs are so sore.. time to give them a good rest. ZoukOut 2005 just rocked completely, nothing to deny it, I wanted to buy the zoukout t-shirt.. but I was too late :'( so they sold me the CREW ZoukOut t-shirt instead.. haha! still satisfied..

Okies, abit on the bad side.. on my way there and during the clubbin itself. Singaporeans really potray themselves to be really shitty people you know? the kind of impression they leave behind.. while queuing up, they just push the hell way through not as though others weren't!?! I still remember this fat girl in blue pushing pushing... uck! so fat la... den kept pushing me, like I can make the crowd go faster!?! stupid. Of course, the caucasians have their own flaws too, when they walk through the crowds while clubbing, they just literally push you to the extent that you could fall, or they wanted to pick a fight... I hope it's just cause of their build and strength compared to asians. Ah wells, it seemed as though they really did want to pick a fight. Okay, here comes the worst part... haha, there were this group of transvestites.. and I mean GROUP! They took up 1 out of the 4podiums and started dancing with their manly faces and fake breasts and short skirts, GOD! nothing could have been more worse than this.. I swear.. haha(brrr... *shivers*) oh, I seriously think they were from thailand.. cause I heard them talking and they had the MAN voice.. oh man, gross right!?! haha... yeah and you could just hear the accent to differentiate them from other people's.. definitely THAI! No criticisms or any sort here, just.. it's like, they're showing their country to be that way? Ah wells...

Just so many wonderful things to say about this whole experience, although it would definitely have been made like ULTIMATE if you had a whole group of friends to go with, ah wells. :) oh oh! 1more thing, I saw Fiona Xie.. you know,her boobs dont look as big as they do on television... wonder why.. hmmms.. lol.. will try to remember what I wanted to put, I can't remember, anyways.. it's the best experience ever man.. DAMN!

About 1week to your return... lalala

I think I wont go clubbin anymore.. not anytime soon.. it's so fucking boring just to keep finding people to go along wit ya.. zzz. life's boring man.

Hey hey peeps~ i'm home.. hehe
okies, had a 3day chalet.. nothing much to talk about the chalet also.. I went around 9pm++ on the first night, and had lots of chicken wings.. keke, so there were about 7 of us who were there at the chalet(quite sian right?).. haha, so we just played mahjong until like 4am++, played until I think I gained a dollar from where Junxiang left off.. haha. yeah after that, played some card games.. haha... to prove that Mansfield is just slow, so it was kind of a pointless game since the loser's always him eh? haha...
yeah, so I decided to sleep in the morning while the rest went for breakfast, Huiyi also slept like a pig.. haha. Fang Hao bought macdonalds breakfast for us.. haha, okies.. so after that we went to Escape Theme Park.. I was anticipating it initially since it would be first time..(yeah yeah. slow, I know!) okies, so after that.. we went in and I was like.. -_-''' ...haha, so little rides la, I think we finished the rides after about 2hours, Singapore's theme park's really lousy, and I mean REALLY. can you believe it, every single ride you go to, there's more than half of the seats with the sticker paste "Out of Service", so basically, they have NO SERVICE at the theme park. yups, I think there was nothing much, after which we just went to white sands to get food stuff for the bbq that night, but obviously FH spent so much money which he ended up bringing home, although maybe the 5of us that night finished god knows how many chicken wings eh? haha... and not to mention the nuggets, I think 60? yups, that's how much "surplus" we had. haha. oh,this group of j1 girls wanted to come to our room to watch a movie, but they ended up sleeping in their room.. pity right? lol... ah wells. so that night.. was really sianified. it was left with me,fh,hy and hong kai.. yeaps, we were so bored, so quiet.. not like the night before. the whole 04S24 like so anti-social, the whole bunch of them coming up with stupid reasons to turn down the offer of staying over at the chalet. it's like... Fang Hao never even ask for money or any shit for you all to stay over?! you know how much he spent? it's like really unfair la.. and it's not as though he's the richest one amongst us or anything like that.. really so disappointed with such antisocial and retarded behaviour among the class.. it was probably the last time we would have anything like that anymore(at least for this year!).. after this, a couple of us will be going to the universities, while the rest of us will be serving the nation.. wasn't really memorable despite the fun during the 1st night and 2nd day, guess the 2nd night showed how some people from our class really behave. really stupid excuses.. ah wells... at least Fanghao knows he has good friends like me n huiyi.. haha(I hope!).. okies
Guess that's all I have to blog about for today... :)


Waiting for ur return... missing you but aint sure how to tell ya... so confused..

okies, shall be blogging abit for today.. going for class chalet later, might swim before that. yeah yeah! hope the chalet's fun though, invited people from other classes' too.. can you imagine the chalet with just your class? abit boring la.. haha.
Anyways,been too busy talking about events that spoilt my mood the last couple of days,I guess I shall talk about my prom eh? haha..
Prom was okay, except I was blocked by the stupid pillar the whole time, so it was more of a HEAR but no SEE kinda event for me.. if I slanted my body, yes I could see but it was really tiring.. hmmms, Daniel Ong was the host and yes.. he was as lame as usual.. luckily I could take his lameness.. haha. Oh! but the muslim food was like okay for the 1st half and really disgusting for the second half.. the fish, vege and rice were just yucky. the rice felt like it was overcooked.. and it was jus cooked with raisins? imagine eating rice with raisins.. kinda weird eh? and i felt that the fish wasn't fresh although my friend said it was, but i still think it aint...

Darren Leong's been msg-ing me and all asking me to go back to choir and sing.. but for what!?! I mean I love singing.. like it's my life, but G2's just another thing. really screwed I would say(if u're from g2 and you're not happy with me saying this,den #1 - too bad, #2 - tell me off right in my face den!). when u're in the committee and all, you can SEE things and you know.. geesh, it just opens your eyes to what people have been viewing it as, it's like another side of the story. okies...

So i'm going to apply for the edusave merit bursary later, but i'm waiting for my mama to come home to pass me her payslip... zzz, so i can't go to the chalet earlier, or go swimming now.. plus it's raining, geesh.. why this kinda weather.. :(. okies, so i guess i'll be bored stiff for about the next hour or so.. den it should be okies. guess tat's all i have to blog for today... for now. :)

Oh oh, one more thing.. if any of you are going to zoukout, please tell me yah? :D

hey hey, i'm back..
haha... okies.. for those who have my msn and have been wondering wassup with my nick yesterday? you got almost the full story from my blog entry yesterday..
anyways,i cried my ass off while i was drunk... and i think i cried like over an hour plus. you know, it just so hurts me to think about people backstabbing and your "friends" betraying you over a girl?(who wasn't even worth it in the first place), I still remember Anthony telling me a long time ago.. "guys will never quarrel over a gal".. but I guess that's different today from where ever I'm standing and experiencing.
But I guess that hour over worth's of crying did help me in 1way, it help me to put the past behind.. no point brooding anymore. No point, yes I mean it. Your ex-girlfriend(cheryl bock) goes steady with your "good friend"(eugene).. that's still okay, I forgive that, but your "good friend" suddenly ignores you(perhaps being too ashamed too anyways) and somehow he influences everyone closer to him(alvin) than I am and that I know to ignore me too.Hey guess what, you're not going to bring me down.. I dont care about it, I guess that night.. many people assured me and I'm really glad for it,and yes.. whatever I said when I was drunk that night, I still stick to it, I'll never take it back, whatever I said.. I believe I had a sensible mind. so you know what.. believe it. I can tell you everything I said while I was drunk... just that those were secrets I would have never let out.. but guess they all came out..
So now you know why I wanted to get drunk.. hoping to drown my sorrows.. like I heard zhaoting.. haha "this one's drowning his sorrows".. and yes, it dint really work, in the end I still broke down and cried my ass off. But it's all over now. There's still lotsa people out there that I have yet to know.. and I'm going to continue being the lame ass that I was born to be.. haha.
Thanks everyone out there who have believed in me, and those that dont... cause those that dont have just made me trust myself more to strive for the best. :)



Once again, thanks.

Hangover..

I got drunk like shit last night which was my aim... and it really dint feel good. was really drunk, still am.. and I blardy wasted lots of money.. ah wells, I dont really care.
Thanks to all those who consoled me when I was crying the fuck out like maybe this morning? you know, your emotions are just more easily expressed when you're drunk cause you dont give a shit to what people think.. hahah. Okies, so now the whole world knows my story, and I bet those bastards also know it(I hope they do anyways). Curse their wretched lifes!
But then again, what's the point... haha. NO POINT! just let them have their own regrets.. like losing me as a friend!
Oh one more thing, people can think when they're drunk k? we can't walk straight, we talk rubbish(not all the time like me! :D).. and all those stupid things u think we do, we actually do THINK, it's just extreme behaviour. haha
okies.. I still feel like puking.. but.. I need sleep. and im' not hungry anymore, nobody wans to eat when you're drunk.. :'( haha

would like to give special thanks to Zhaoting,Viknesh,Alan,Fang Hao and whoever that consoled me. can't remember who was there... haha too tired la, tell me if I missed you out..
not that anyone reads this blog anyway.. okies that's it

who are your true friends?
u're all alone in this world,
but when the time comes,
you'll just leave peacefully,
and no one would have none you ever existed.
:(