Hey peeps!!! It's been 2days since I last blogged... too many things happened at home. My family ruined this christmas for me man... christmas this year is just so fucked up. My family fuck me upside down, Mark's a lousy shit head who ruined combined choir. Everything just sucks. I'm at home now, but this is the first time I came home in like 2 - 3 days. Remember I fought with my brother? Yeah... that bastard came home that night and he couldnt find his stuff when I dint even take it and he started accusing me of it... He even threatened to delete all my stuff from the computer. I was really emotional that day... I was so sad I cried for over half hour plus in front of father and even some of the G2 people. Just checked and my brother deleted some of my stuff.. really hate him. Bastard can't think everytime... just does things without thinking first... den I wanted to rush home by cab to help me find his lousy shit stuff, when I got on the cab he called and said he found it. He is a bastard I swear... when I needed my mum to talk to me and console me, she kept scolding me and I shouted until some neighbourhood in katong could hear me cause I could hear my echoes so far away... Fuck it man. I'm not talking to my mum anymore, she doesn't deserve to be called my mum. I've been staying over at Darren Leong's place for 2nights already. Tonight I'm gonna spend it at Jon. Chia's place since we're having a party there... ah well. Better... I hate my house, hate this home. Hate my mum... can't even trust me! I dont care about how she feels... when I reached home I just ignored her and she said... "Go church still like that, christmas also dont wanna talk to me.. bla bla bla!" dint bother listening to what she was trying to say, do you think I really care? Had to borrow money from Darren Leong cause I was starving and had no money. Not gonna ask my mother for money man. No way... She thinks she has her own pride, I have mine... Some kinda disrespect I'm getting. So what if I'm young. Cause of her, I had to scream and I lost my voice... I got this damn sore throat that caused me to not be able to reach the high notes for my choir singing. Luckily it's better... but it's her fault I can't sing properly. I just wanted to pull out of combined choir and pageant cause of that night. You know how hurting it feels... Life sucks cause of my mum. Christmas is ruined this year. Ah well... what can I do. I don't really care.. I'm gonna go out back to Darren Leong's house in a couple of hours I guess.. should start burning my things and hiding it from my brother or something. Reckless bitch. Ah that's about it.
Oh... went to church during the afternoon yesterday for sound check. Guess it was okay, after which me n nick went to lose for the cheapo pressies we getting for everyone in g2. :P sorry if I dint some of you guys really sincere presents, but I'm low on cash this year *Sigh*. I'll try to get a good pressie for you next year. After which went to life bookshop at parkway parade again... Wooo! this time I introduced Darren Leong to the 2CDs of heart of worship to Darren... he dint really like de urban one, but he thought that "the passion - the heart of worship" was not bad. ah wells... den i listened to a new release of Michael W. Smith. Man... his singing is really good alright. Woo, I let nick listen to it and he really liked it. Ah well, guess I gotta save money and buy those for myself. Rather buy this myself den let people gimme them as christmas pressies. So pai seh.. I just love them so much. Ah well... Must buy my 2bowling balls first! MWAHAHA... oh yeah, I went bowling that day and I bowled like crap. 141 average only... dont know why, was like I bowl a bit and I felt so darn tired so I just anyhow bowled after that. But my friend said that the lanes at pocketbowl is similar to that of victors, I guess I'll be training more at pocketbowl now since she said that... the lanes there are very very hard to master. At least de rates are cheaper. :D save money... kekek.
Ooo. Last night a few of us stayed over at Darren Leong's place but we dint really do much, we watched this really funny video, it was like a combination of the terminator and the birth of christ... haha! really funny... oh den we just sorted all the goodies into the bags for everyone. Den woke up this morning and all of us had to start writing the cards for the g2 people. I didn't write for everyone in the choir, there's just sooooo many new members and they haven't really been coming. Even some of the "older" members never come often so it's like what's there to write to them? There were quite a number of blank cards, 6 of us and no one could write anything, so you can imagine... ah well. That's all... I need some rest before mass later on.. *Yawn*