Hey people!!! wonder how long it's been since I last blogged, not that long anyway.. haha! Oh well, I sound cheerful don't I? But I ain't really that cheerful. Basically my ex has decided not to get into a relationship at the moment or so she says? I will never show, and the other guy's pestering her and saying the same stuff I'm saying? Now that's weird... Oh well, I've decided to stop messaging her for the time being or really sms her once a week or something. Yeah, I guess I'll leave things as they are and really let life take its course. It breaks my heart when I think about it, but when I don't... perhaps I feel happy. I'm just wondering if I should find someone new... she's broken my heart so many times although I was the one who broke up with her. She went with another guy to forget me, in the process to fill that "empty void" I tried going after girls I din't really like and got myself hurt even more. It just seems I'm torturing and hurting myself as each day passes by. I've told her how I felt, but she just wants to remains as friend. Guess there's nothing I can do, but I've said I will wait for her... But she said she doesn't love me, and I might not get the end I want in the process of waiting... so to wait or not to wait? You know.. I found the 400-500+ stars I made for her in a span of less than 2weeks during February when I wanted to get her back, but it was too late so I dint continue. Now, they're just collecting dust at home... I dont know what to do no more... *sigh*
On the brighter side of life, I think I'm officially the Bass Section Leader for my church choir (genesis2)! Yeah, I'm very happy! Yeah yeah... I can continue serving the church community and the choir itself but there comes great responsibility with the position but I won't know till I try... Just got to learn how to sort my time real soon.
Oh yeah... I haven't started praciticing for my 2nd swimming trials which I dont know when it will be since it clashes with my attachment programme. But yeah, it clashed with all my ccas and its hindering from all my training(except bowling I guess) ... next week is the last week though! Yeah Yeah! But... I got a poster project to hand in and present :'( *sobx* In the mean time, I have like nothing to do at office so I sleep most of the time, but it's really so uncomfortable... I don't know what to present for the project... GEESH! I really need help...
Hmmms,I'm sure I got lots to say but I just can't think of it. Oh yeah, this week's the 1st week of advent or the last sunday was the 1st Sunday! Yeah, The candle of HOPE was lit, so I guess I should hope for things in life? I'm not sure either... but hope supposed to exists somewhere I can't see. Hope the Lord shows me the way. Next Sunday, the candle that represents peace will be lit! Yeap! Okies.. that's all people. Hope you have a good time during the week.