everyone just disappears...





everyone just ignores you...




nothing seems to make sense anymore...





even the right words seem so wrong...





someone tell me what's so wrong...





bah! okies.. rubbbish, you can choose to ignore this.. bla bla.. hmms or not. okies, so i skipped school today, but i studied 2lousy chapters of physics.. that's all, i know i can do much better.. *sigh* i need to push myself harder.. i'm so slack..
i think it's just gonna be like the o levels again...
but that was different, i studied hard.. dint do well.. studied even harder..
this time.. im' not even studying hard.. even if i dont do well, i might not be motivated to study hard... i've lost the drive, the will to work hard.. isn't it funny, i think the education system jus wears you out over the years... i wonder how some people are so driven to continue studying, maybe it's cos they have aspirations they are willing to fight for..

while me... i dont have much for now. although i wanna get into aerospace engineering, which is definitely a difficult course to enter, i dont see myself having an occupation in future, at least one i can imagine myself or dream to be... if only i had these.. bah! okies, gonna study through the night, got to force myself.

oh yeah, might be doing like 5hours of cip everyday until next week so i can clock up 40hours.. hopefully i wont be too worn out that i can't study... geesh, let's pray hard. especially for my f maths.. dont know how to improve it.. god bless me man... or someone teach me.. if it's not too late.. which i think it isn't...

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