Hey! Long time never update.. have been busy with my attachment programme,or i should i say not busy. I signed up for some attachment with local research institutes under some MOE thingy and i got it. So we're supposed to conduct research but what do I get?!?! I sit down everyday in front of the computer not doing anything. I'm supposed to update their books, I've finished my part of the job. I really this ends quickly... I cant take it anymore.

I thought I had forgotten her, but I still love her. It's been more than 1year that I left my ex. But I've been given a sign or something... I just dont understand. I woke up one day after having a dream about her... that she has always been in my heart. Just a hidden fact. I've tried getting her back once but she rejected, now when I have my chance... I'm screwing it up. I dont know, I really wanna let her have all the time and tell me when she's ready... But I'm pushing her and myself too fast.. I cant control these emotions that are so strong that live for her. But right now, I can only remind myself that we have to go slow.. at least me. And what she wants right now is to start from friends.. I don't know whether she will be my christmas dream this year, but i really hope so. That's all I want in my life, I have regretted too much, lied too myself, had too many infatuations. My straight-forwardness has just been causing me to hurt myself time and again this year... I just hope things can go back to what they were in the past. With her.... Bowling well... studying well... I think it's just her...